Change is a'comin'...
like a tortoise
i wish It would speed it up a little
(i start quakin' deep inside, fearing
the risks i awaken with such wishes)
thoughts, inklings, intuitions, dreams
all tangled up together
like spaghetti
(always hated spaghetti
...messy pasta)
maybe the lapse is divine patience
waiting for me to 'evolve'
sort it out, figure it out
(true or false:?
"you don't yet have all the information")
no bigger than other decisions i've made
(right?!?!)
what to eat
when to sleep
where to live
work to do
who not to marry
*sigh*
yet somewhere
perhaps while immersed in this sloggin' energy
i woke up a little bit
& started getting scared
that maybe i don't have forever
a voice waking me to the realization
that Now is all i have
reminding that i'd best act accountable
admit my passions &
realize my dreams
(waking, ha!
perchance so much sleep
to dream the answers?)
my soul knew
oh, yes, i knew
that my coming here
would light this off
am i testing myself & That which is?
like a petulant child
i've always been cared for before
but what about if i do THIS?
will you still love me, Lord
if i identify
then follow
my dreams
never alone
always cared for
bigger than i know
EGO says:
it's a bit scary.
i hope i don't screw it up.
(fear, i banish you.)
PLEASE
not my will but thy will
eternally
c.
