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i think the best part of this crazy yoga trip is the other seekers i've met along the journey - wise people you can crawl out of bed to email about emotional subtleties in the middle of the night...

i should be in bed
instead im sitting in my zebra underwear and gandhi shirt in my dark kitchen spouting you missives by candlelight
it's like the late 1800s except for the clothing

since moving, ive had a few emotional icky spots plaguing me so last night i put pads to keys and got it out. yes, trusty reader, you are excused from such couch sessions...

i awoke to find words of wisdom awaiting, which resonated so much that i want to hold on to them... so i will share the best...

"I truly believe we are put in certain situations as life tests, as things we need to work on, so yes, maybe there is something about you that needs to be worked on... You're working on the subtle things! Your resolve must be strong to get through this, because when you finally figure this out and learn to deal with your feelings, give yourself to them, surrender, if only at night and by yourself, explore it, don't overcome it but get so familiar with it, so aware of it that it will not have a grip on you, trusting that inside you are so great, so whole, that nothing can keep you down for long, because it is not who you are."

ah... through darkness to the light. made me realize that ive explored the emotional ickiness of this experience in close detail for the past few years and it's silly that i avoid any sign of negative experience now - especially the nuance of a situation that keeps rearing its whispering head. and i truly believe that which you resist, persists. so i do intend to sit with it, love it, embrace it, move through it, and back to shining out goodness. such good stuff.

the future's so bright...

if you'll excuse me,
c.