"If you bring out what is inside you,
what is inside will save you.
If you fail to bring out what is inside you,
what is inside you will destroy you."
-Gnostic Gospels

one of them nights. words flow. hours pass. stars twinkle. world sleeps.

being called to do big work. dare that sound brave, im typing this from under my bed. ;) thankfully, when i am too scared to make the phone call, the phone rings. within 48 hours, i've received all this:

- you are already healed. there is nothing missing or broken. All One. you are divine.
- mother earth needs your shit. it's her fertilizer. through some misconstrued guilt or worry, we have stopped giving these aspects to her. she knows what to do with it. she is begging for it from us & we are withholding. give her the fertilizer. there is a time to burn, to allow new life to issue forth. next year's new growth springs forth from what we allow to die now.
- imagine a life free from guilt & worry. guilt is usually a past-focused emotion, worry generally future-based. enjoy the energy you have to focus elsewhere when you free yourself of these (worthless?) emotions.
- sometimes in life we make hard decisions and these decisions close doors. you went down that path for a reason, learned what you needed to learn there. how much longer you gonna stand staring at that closed door? walk away! *fingernails dragging on the floor*
- Ganesh removes obstacles. (hey Ganesh! i can't see the path for all these obstacles!) but it is often our limitations that reveal our greatest strengths. the owner put a bell around the neck of his cat that hunted too well. this bell only increased the cat's stealth until he could hunt & kill - even more productively than before - w/o making a sound. the most difficult things that have happened to you will reveal your greatest strengths.
- Ganesh is often shown carrying a tusk - it's one of his own that he ripped off in anger & threw at the moon. the moon threw it back. he carries it as a reminder of where he has been & the tribulations he has faced.
- many people can ignore their worries and fears until nighttime. the moments before sleep are some of our most precious, as these moments set the stage for our next X hours of subconscious activity. instead of setting yourself up for nighttime anxiety and nightmares, think about what it is that you're working toward in life. spend some time feeling as you will when this happens. fall asleep in this frame of mind, using your sleep time to program these positive habits/reactions into your subconscious.
- the universe will naturally return to a place of rest. it takes a lot to fight, to stay angry and bitter. dont waste the energy.
- accept responsibility for what happened. even more importantly, accept responsibility for YOUR reactions & emotions about whatever happened.
- forgive. first yourself. then the other person(s) involved. there is great freedom in forgiveness.
- stand back. big waves wash over. let it come. then get up. and serve.

momma, these hips hurt.

He fixed both my wings and taught me how to fly...
c.