staying at a b&b (but really no second b) in buffalo. thanking god for the small luxuries i am able to afford myself that keep me grateful and cared for - pampered, more like. working a few days and then home for the holiday and a few much needed weeks of r&r before moving back up here for good. im foregoing that amazing bathtub shown above to get out some of these thoughts. guess that's what happens when an introspective person is left mostly alone in a strange city w/ their thoughts. randoms, in no specific order:
- working in the city process, things never go as originally planned - and you just have to roll onward. it's all good practice in malleability.
- act, dont react. so much easier said than done. watch the emotional, reactionary storm pass like clouds, not seizing on any one thought or letting any one reaction unravel you.
- no matter how many times i practice, i am still not adept at knowing specifically what i need - beyond a need to be on the mat as much as realistically possible. climbing onto the mat after work, in a warm sunny window, glorious breeze caressing, city life & traffic passing by beneath my window, literally being IN the flow. hello, my Beloved! witnessing the body crack and creak and release subconscious stress. neck let go like at the chiropractor. sighing and mmmm-ing my way through my practice, in that warm beam of sunlight, while van morrison sings, this must be what paradise is like. mm-hmm. so blessed.
- i fear that people generally like to be unhappy, either through habit or through fear of the unknown. why choose something mediocre when what lies beyond is unknown and could so far surpass expectations? please take the risk. please don't settle. please shun apathy.
and live like you're on vacation. ;)
i like those conversational reminders - those beads that someone says that stick with you - especially when that memory is jogged by something a few months later. someone said this to me a few months back that unbeknownst to me at the time, planted formative seeds for my move:
'to those who are given much, much is expected and sometimes the courage to leave is needed.' - joseph campbell, hero's journey
i think i blogged that at the time, this served to remind me of my favorite joseph campbell loveli-ism: "follow your bliss."
(which, incidentally, i then scrawled across my bathroom mirror in eyeliner pencil. feeling silly, but like i should, i left it there when i had a showing. it made the girl bawl. she bought my house... interesting flowchart, eh?)
today, first day lapsed, this was my horoscope:
"...meditations on these subjects will inspire you to overcome
any laziness you might have about cultivating happiness. It's a perfect
time for you to attempt this monumental accomplishment, you see.
You're at a potential turning point, a time when you could get in the habit of treating your hero's journey as if it were an ever-evolving celebration."
wanna come to my party? you're invited. bring your own happiness recipe. we can share. unabashed.
c.
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